self honesty is rare

bc when we are polluted in place of our truths , truths eventually we forget and lose our way and our true self, the truths are there, and they are felt, but bc the pollution clouds our judgment, and bc we want this, we say, ah i wont forget, ah if i do smth wrong or bad knowing full well of consequences, so long as its not discovered by others, i should it be severely impacted, we maintain a lie and we believe it ina way that, blocks our purview from what is the minute we extend that lie towards others.